I’ve been posting at least twice a week for 2 months. Haha – okay that’s only 8 times, I’ve posted more than that. But I still like it. I still will be using this for a book about fear, and my journey through it.
I’m better than I was 2 months ago. I’m happy about that. So much of this is just like when I first got clean.
It’s brewer’s tax due day. Don’t know why it’s on the 13th instead of the 16th – that’s just not right haha.
S has been sleepwalking for 2 days, so he’s mean today. He yelled at me for not asking him if he was going to cook before I took meat out of the freezer. That’s the stupidest thing I’ve ever been yelled at about. I mean… I can take meat out of a freezer if I want to, yeah? Thing is – it’s 630 pm now – he’s not even going to start cooking anytime soon, and it’s going to make him mad when I go to bed at 930 or 10. I hate this pattern.
Okay, I use the word “yelled” incorrectly. When I say that, I mean that I could tell he was not happy with me. That’s not yelling, but that’s what I’ve always called it. I don’t think I know what else to call it.
I finally told him today that I thought it would be a good idea to stay in this house for another year. I was afraid to do that. Ugh, I hate this feeling.
“I have an unbreakable confidence in myself”. I do. I know that I can get through anything! I just don’t like hurting people hahahahah I’m … I almost wrote a bad thing about me. I’m learning!
