So I’m meeting with the guy tomorrow from the parent company who has run all kinds of support staffs, and he wants to do whatever he can to help me.
Well, that just terrifies me. Soon as he learns The product, they will not need me anymore. I’m not a team player. I’m a teach me what to do and leave me alone player. And that’s OK. I know that God isn’t worrying, or saying to himself and his friends, “oh my goodness I hope they don’t fire her. “
He has always, and will continue to take care of me.
If this does happen, I will be fine. Even if I’m scared, all I need to do is keep putting 1 foot in front of the other. And having a broken ankle, that’s absolutely just an expression.
I have to decide what I need. I have to figure out what to tell him that I need help with. Do I want to work less hours? The thing is, I probably work 40 or so each week, but then I clock in for only 30. If I cut down to 20, and maybe say only work from 10 to 3. Then at three I can start work on my projects.
That is absolutely what I want to be able to do, And I hate that I care entirely too much about this job. Is this a new beginning for me? I want it. I want very much.
