I mowed the front lawn at 2:15 pm Monday. The battery wasn’t fully charged, but I still made it through.
Mowed the backyard on Tuesday. Battery juuuuuuuust barely made it. I love mowing. So much. I’m not scared when I mow.
Today is the 30th of the month, and I usually don’t have rent ready. But this month, it’s already paid. It’s weird not being scared about that. Sometimes I sit on the back porch and still FEEL scared, and I have to tell myself it’s not real. It’s not necessary. I’m slowly, entirely too slowly replacing those thoughts.
In our morning video –
They say that we become what we think about.. most of the time. When I was getting clean, they taught me to think about things OTHER than using. I became someone that doesn’t use.
I want to become a person that pays their bills on time, and isn’t afraid to do the “normal” things in life. I am going to start thinking that bills need to be paid on time and I don’t need to be afraid of “normal” things.
I can absolutely do this.
