I have no idea why I have this overwhelming guilt. Got in a huge fight with my boss. I’m supposed to be giving a presentation. I was very proud of what I prepared, she interrupted me asking if I had even bothered to write anything down, or if I was just winging it.
I still don’t understand what it is I’m doing wrong. I don’t know that I ever will.
She wrote me at 8:30 at night. It was not an apology, but it was kind of encouragement. I have been through so much feeling yesterday and today. Jumping back and forth between I can do this and “trying is the first step towards sucking”.
I know that S was taking up for me. I think he was truly as confused as I was. I really hate that I did a bad job. I read up on presentations and was thinking about keeping them engaged and not bored.
Anyway, I’ll come up with something. I always do. I’m great at what I do. I’m funny and smart and I like to help people.